I’ve dabbled in blogging before, but never followed through. In fact, following through with things, or should I say the lack of following through with things, has been an issue of mine for a long time. I have every great intention, but then the fear hits me. The fear of what people will think; the fear of not being successful; ultimately the fear of not being good enough. Getting sober has helped me deal with this fear, but it still lurks in the corners of my mind, waiting to pounce on any doubt I might have of my ability to take a leap of faith.
I’ve prayed, pondered and talked with friends and family about starting this blog. Should I? Why? What do I have to say that someone else isn’t already saying? What I kept coming back to is my desire and passion to share my story. It doesn’t mean I think my story is unique or better than anyone else’s story; it just means that I have a story and more than that, I have a story and a willingness share it with others. You see, women like me are not alcoholics – at least that’s what most people would like to believe. How could an educated, middle-class mother of two sink to the depths of alcoholism? I don’t fit the mold and that is exactly why I need to share my story. For whatever reason, God has put me in this position to help others – to give a voice to those of us who don’t fit the mold, yet are struggling in silence. Behind the “perfect” life people perceive we are living, we are suffering and falling further and further into the depths of alcoholism and addiction.
For the grace of God and the support of amazing family and friends, I have made it to the other side. I am recovering. Before getting sober, I couldn’t imagine a life without alcohol. But, there is life – a wonderful, amazing life. I want this blog to be a testimony to what a sober life can look like. It’s not perfect, but it’s real.
I’m going to do my best to not let fear get in the way of sharing my story with you. I want this to be an open and honest forum where we can inspire and support each other. I hope you’ll join me in taking the plunge!