One Of Those Days

Hope

Today was one of those days when I wish there was a “reset” button.

After weeks of declining health, we decided to put our last cat down this morning. In many ways, it was the end of era. When my husband and I moved in together, he had a dog and cat and I had two cats. We ended up getting rid of one of the cats early on, but created a nice family unit with the remaining dog and two cats. Eventually, kids entered the mix, our dog died, “my” cat died and we were left with one remaining cat, our sweet, little orange tabby.

I grew up with cats and dogs, and for the most part, have always had one or the other in my adult life. I think it’s safe to say there are those who like animals and those who don’t. I’m not sure if I totally trust a person who doesn’t like animals. They teach us so much about ourselves – patience, trust, gentleness, selflessness. I’m confidant my cat, Alex, taught me many lessons about motherhood before I ever had children.

For many of us, loosing a pet is similar to loosing a member of the family. I went through most of today in a daze, grieving the loss of a true friend who I jokingly referred to as my “little shadow” for the way she followed me around the house, up and down the stairs and room to room.

Part of me feels silly writing about this, but if you’re an animal person you’ll “get” it and, if not, well, this post isn’t for you.

You see, I’m feeling sad. I’m sad that I lost a friend today; I’m sad that I was on edge all day with my kids; I’m sad that nothing seemed to go “right” today.

I used to drink when I was sad; now, I write. And, I pray and talk to God and tomorrow I will meet and talk with my sponsor. And, tomorrow will be a new day and won’t seem as bad as today.

17 responses

  1. While I might not totally be an animal person 🙂 I certainly can appreciate the sense of loss and grief and I felt so badly when you shared this with me today! And besides, I’m your friend! So what you’re feeling I’m feeling right along with you and for you. Cause that’s what we do for those we care about, right?
    Love ya,
    Vanessa
    P.S. Hope you know you can trust me even though we don’t have pets in our house right now! 😉

    • Oh Vanessa, thank you! Of course, I trust you – you’re my kindred spirit! And, who knows, someday those kids might just talk you into getting a furry friend! Love you!

  2. Sorry to hear about the wee one. I have had many pets, and while I am not ooey gooey with them (we have a cute dachshund now) I have always had a strong connection with them. I agree that they teach us things about ourselves. I am glad that you found solace in prayer and talking to God and also that you will be seeing your sponsor. That will certainly help put things in perspective.

    Prayers out to you 🙂

    Paul

  3. I’m so sorry. 😦

    Never easy to say goodbye to a loved one. Two legs or four legs, it doesn’t matter–it’s family.

    My thoughts go with you. May your faith and your happy memories bring you comfort.

    • Thanks runningonsober! Feeling better today, but, boy, does the house feel empty when the kids are at school. I’ll have to start talking to the plants like my mom used to do! Thanks for your support. I appreciate it!

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